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The mysterious world of MONICA CROESE

1.5.12

Why running around in circles?

Hi there all, how are you doing?  I hope all goes well for you. It has been awhile, but life (again) was interfering big time. And when this happens, i find it difficult to communicate. I hide myself  in dreams. Avoiding the big questions, why am i here? what am i doing here? Why art, drawing, painting? Why bother? Why not? Reading La nausee by Sartre doesn't help, or maybe it does. Perhaps i am an existentialist by heart without knowing it. Maybe i am a misantropic humanist or a humane misantrophe. Probably i am both. Can you tell the difference?  I am a pleaser, i want to be loved by everyone. Please, love me. Please, hate me. No, i am not crazy. I am just questioning all. Looking at all possibilities. I don't wanna scare you.  I do not wanna..........  I am a contradiction. Am i not?

Unexpectedly it was there, crystalclear: the existence suddenly revealed itself to me.  From now on it didn't look harmless anymore. Like the safety of abstract categories. It was the stuff of which things are made, the beet of the tree was formed out of existence. The beet of the tree, the fences of the parc, the seat, the teneous grass of the lawn, all this had disappeared. The diversity of things, their own character was only an illusion, a little varnish. The varnish was gone, what was left were monstrous, weak heaps, chaotic and nude. Of a terrifying, obscene nudity.
Jean Paul Sartre  *  The atrocity  (a free, simple translation by me)

Ahhh well it isn't all dark moods, don't worry. The good news is that everything is okay with my beloved ones and myself. So i keep this in mind, again and again, to chase away the dark moods, that holds me back from enjoying all good things around me.  I feel happy looking at my love and kids, the cats, the garden, my art. And i have made a beginning of a new drawing. A wonderful challenge, because the seize of this drawing is 130 x 145 cm!  As i said a real challenge. I wonder how long it will take before the white paper is filled with my world in a world in a world...... 


DRIVING CIRCLES AROUND ME* The beginning of a large painting: 130 x 145 cm

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So tell me what you think about the drawing so far. Take good care of your beloved ones. Take good care of nature. And of yourself ofcourse!
When the low moon begins to beam
every night i dream a little dream.......

21 comments:

renilde said...

dear Monica, i look and look at every image of the painting(quite a size) lots to see and discover, i like the composition, the different expressions, situations, the words, i like the complexity already; i like how you placed that face in the foreground and the eyes of the baby, good work and still more to come.

i read what you wrote about hiding in dreams..., is it the complexity of life, the ocean of information that's inundating us or is it something from deep inside, the questions which come to the surface and which only lead to more questions and where can and will we find answers???.... i can feel it all in your painting and i know the 'hiding in dreams' ...
you make this art because you are you and i loooove looking at it, hugs and x

GreenWhisper said...

Hi Momo, lovely to see a new post from you. i do this too..when times get tough i go into semi hibernation..communication always feels difficult at those times.

i like circles..it's inevitable that the loose ends will meet up eventually :)

and i love your new artwork.. it reminds me of the many faces of humanity. is that a snake i see with shedded skin? the circle of life continues..changes begin..

sending much love and a warm hug...

Caio Fern said...

one of those epic classic works of yours. Ilike when you get all brave and start to develop one of those.

very good work.

Gary L. Everest said...

Hi Monica,
You have really outdone yourself with this one! Can it really be as small as you say? How can so much fit into such a small space. It explodes with imagination and your unique language.
How you tap into powerful emotions and turn them into these fantastic creatures defies comprehension.
Brava, brava, brava!
Sincerely,
Gary.

nouvelles couleurs - vienna atelier said...

Monica I also can't explain the feeling I have looking at these intense and really sincery, true works.

do you know the "spirale" theorie of Friedrich hndertwasser, the österreichische künstler who based all your work and philosophie on the spirale and labirinth theorie...
this make me thinking of you

Martine said...

Dear Monica, we all have our dark moods but you make beauty out of them. As long as love and kids, the cats, the garden and your art are there nothing matters. What else should be important? They stay but moods change.
Ik wens jou een lichte, mooie lente met veel liefde. Oja, het is de clematis, had je gezien?
XXXm

LE CHEMIN DES GRANDS JARDINS said...

L'art transcende la folie créatrice et c'est un pur bonheur.
Continue comme ça.

Roger

yvette said...

kus♥ voor nu
later lezen

camino roque said...

me gusta la composición!

... es verdad que tu mundo contiene misterio

Bitch said...

Ah, Monica!
Your work is coming out better than before..
And don't question nothing and hiding in dreams (why not),, maybe it helps..
All my love!!!!!

Nevine Sultan said...

Dear Monica, I am always struck by the beauty of your artwork, and how eloquently it speaks to the truth of who we are. There is something so very profound in all those faces... all those gestures... and all those strings that hang from us, while we hang from them.

My warmest hugs, my dear!

Nevine

Momo Luna said...

Hi Renilde,

sorry for the late response, but i am very little on the internet lately. Much drawing, yeay! And the drawing grows into much more to see. I am happy you like it.

I always was a dreamer i suppose, and yes that's also where my inspirations come from. When i was a child, (day)dreaming was neccessary, to flee from the disturbing, violent experiences i had then. Nowadays it's for discovering who i am, deep inside.
And sometimes it brings answers i was looking for.....
Hugs and kisses dear friend!

Hello green whisper,
yes a circle is a beautiful form, with lots of meanings. I love the circle for expressing eternity and yes for expressing an end but also a new beginning.
Yes, you see a snake, i also love snakes for their many meanings, they often appear in my work somehow.
Sending you my love.....

Hi there dear Caio,
haha i love it when you see me as brave. But yes, these drawings i start without any restrictions or laws or what seems right or wrong in art. I start drawing and my thoughts and hands lead me to those worlds....
Much love my friend!

Momo Luna said...

Hello Gary,
your comment made me smile because the drawing isn't small at all, but LARGE. But it's my mistake for not being clear. I forgot that in Europe seizes, time, date etc., are written a bit different than in the USA or Britain. As i write 1.30 cm, the Dutch and i think europeans as well know i mean 1 meter and 30 cm. I hope you feel the same about my creatures on a larger scale. ;-)
Sweet greetz i send you......

Hi dear Laura,
tnx for such a nice comment. I know the art of Hundertwasser, which i love. But i didn't know about the theory. So i am going to google this and learn more about it. Tnx for sharing this information with me, its interesting.
Love and kisses!

Hello sweet Martine,
yes i hope to touch also the dark forms of humanity but transform that into beauty, hope and light. That's what i try to do anyway....
And yes all what matters is love, friends, family, pets and art. Ahhh ja de clematis, dank je, ik ga ook zo'n plant aanschaffen, hij is prachtig.
Heel veel liefs, xoxo

Momo Luna said...

Hello Roger, thank you for your comment, and yes i certainly continue this way, i cannot stop it. :-)

Dank je lieve Yvette,
heel veel kusjes terug!

Thank you Camino for stopping by and leaving a nice comment. I really appreciate it.

Momo Luna said...

Hello Monika!
That's so sweet of you to say, yes i am very inspired at the moment, it's difficult when i can't draw, which i do a lot lately, so therefor not so much on the internet. When i have this restlesness and this inspiration it almost feels like a fever....
Sending you much LOVE back.

Dear Nevine,
thank you for such beautiful words describing my art. I love what you say about the strings.

I hug you sincerely.....

Victoria said...

Gorgeous works...deeply beautiful and so powerful..your work carries such powerful energy]ies and creational essence..shine on..fantastical..beautiful..thankyou for this dream journey!!
Victoria

Two Tigers said...

Momo this is an amazing ambitious work, it seems to contain whole worlds of feeling and action but it is still so intimate, so uniquely yours. It is wild but it does not want to hurt, just show life as it is. It gives me the feeling of a rainy day when you want to go outside without a coat and umbrella and just stand in the middle of the storm to feel everything about it. Beautiful!

Shoken Holz-Maia said...

A very strong drawing....

Victoria said...

Deeply beautiful..all your pieces carry such expression and a powerful direct link to the soul and journeying inside dreams and realms ...and a feeling of visions breaking open into even more visions...gorgeous..and brilliant!
Victoria

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