Strange worlds

~ Schizophrenia~

~The flood~

Don't say i didn't warn you, lol. Two other drawings from long, long time ago. I wasn't even on art school. These drawings aren't good at all, but i now find them moving. Seventeen or so was i when i drawed these. I was a young, shy girl then, struggling with strong problems. A dreamer (i still am) dreaming of better times with less anxiety. I find it moving to see how i then drawed my beloved subjects of love, fear, hope, strange worlds etc. A little bit childish, not on my own yet, but already hit by life.

Don't worry, soon i will post also new paintings, 'cause i am painting a lot these days. Sometimes computercrashes aren't that bad at all. ;-)

Dream about love, dream breathlessly.....

Nudes

These i made on artschool, also a long time ago. You had two or three minutes to draw the model before she changed her pose. That's such fun. So you learn to let it go and leave out the unnessecary things. It'll be great to do again because sometimes i think too much as i paint and that blocks me from what i want to tell.

I pushed an empty babycarriage all over the city

This is a very old drawing, i think i drawed this around 1985. I don't know exactly why, but this quick drawing (a set up for a painting) is very dear to me. I didn't forget this one, but hadn't seen it for years. It was always in my heart. It did perish a bit but I like it even better with the damages and thinking about to put it this way behind glass. Is that strange? I haven't made a painting of it, perhaps this year, but on the other hand, i think it's good how it is now. The title: i pushed...... is from an Yoko Ono song.

Searching.....

The lovely Manon Doyle has a beautiful new year wish for her readers; reconnect with yourself.

At this time my love and i are going thru some hard times with tears and sorrow, but that's okay, this also means growth. As a new year begins i always have this urge to clean, as i feel sad i have this urge too. So can you imagine me now? Can you imagine how clean my house is at the moment? And i am a sloven. While i was cleaning up my working space i find a long forgotten drawing map with long forgotten drawings and paintings, even from artschool. I thought i go thru it to see it all and then throw it away. But i couldn't throw it away, because although all these paintings are not that good, they are filled with lots of memories. And one feeling hit me by surprise: during the thirty years of my journey i have lost myself somewhere. How did that happen? Although the paintings were not so good (sometimes) there is a sparkle in all of them. A sparkle of creativity and life. Luckily i have still that sparkle in my drawings, but in my paintings i have to rediscover it. All your nice comments made me strong enough to paint again (thank you!), but i was unsecure, restless, discontented. I have to find the sparkle, to reconnect with myself. This progress started yesterday and i hope the flame will blaze up and burn. Even stronger and brighter.

I'm afraid this month i will upload my old art. But then you can notice how my art journey started. ;-) Again, thank you for your comments, those also make me grow and i hope to do the same for you in return. And now i show you an old linocut. It's a selfportrait.

Conscious & unconscious

Fly me to the beautiful garden

Fly me to the moon

Beautiful garden

Butterfly eyes

Don't touch me, touch my soul

Merry Xmas

and a new year full of love and caring.
Lots of new creative ideas, beautiful paintings,

wonderful poems, nice photographs.

And LOVE, did i mention love? ;-)
That's what i wish for all of you!

XoXo

Hope to see you all again in 2010.....

Question

My hubby and love Des Oriënt uses Mozilla firefox for his browser. I've noticed that my page doesn't look like how i want it to look. The soft green background in the part of the posts has disappeared and show also the dark green background. So you can't read the posts (or very difficult) Perhaps the fault comes from my hubbies computer. So i want to check this out. Are there more Mozilla firefox users who has the same problem as i described above? Please let me know, so i can (try to) fix it. :-)
Okay, i've changed it, a solid background. I must say that i like this even more, a clearer design. I hope everyone now can read my posts (better). Tell me please, has the colom from the posts and the sidebar with links, profile etc. now a light background? Thank you.

And the winners are.......

So, i put the names in a singing bowl and i can tell you Emil is very precise and strict in this job ;-) He picked the following winners:


Caio and Emmy congratulations! Please, send me your adress information by mail and i'll send you the two booklets.

Pakjesavond: two give aways.....

Tomorrow evening, the 5th of december, we have in Holland 'pakjesavond' also known as Sinterklaasfeest. It's a very old Dutch tradition, a special event for the children. But even when the children are older or grown up this evening stays special. Drinking hot chocloate, eating chocloate letters or 'pepernoten', enjoying each others company and giving each other presents accompanied with little rhymes. Also we make some teasing presents with funny rhymes to point out someones flaws. For instance a game which needs lots of patience for the impatient ones. But you have to make the teasing present yourself. And it's fun to make these surprises.

I thought it would be fun to play Sinterklaas myself. Two give-aways i have; 2 x my two booklets Drawings 1994-2006 & Drawings 2007-2008. So if you're interested let me know by commenting this post. Next sunday, 13 december, the 13 will be a lucky number for two of you readers. My son Emil will pick two names from a Sinterklaas bag and they win two booklets each.

I wish a warm december with lots of joy for all of you.